reeling

it's october 30th. Something like three years and nine months since the world sped up and never slowed down.

i feel like i'm dying. a second ago i felt like my whole body was vibrating with each heartbeat. like i could see my head jerking. (this i probably imagined)

i don't know why the events of the past week or so have hit me so hard, but they have. it was like a dream, except i woke up and it was all real.

i'm on my second caffeinated beverage since about three in the afternoon. this can't be good. but i have two exams on tuesday and i am SO unprepared.

i don't understand people.