the trouble with lesbians is that we/they expect everything to be laid out beforehand. we don't wait for things to develop as they go; instead we plan it in our heads and then act it out. and then we are surprised when things play out differently than we expected, or we imagine where things could go and how bad they could be. it has to stop.
I'm also very aware of the fact that I feel like I did that one time I was sixteen and had a crush on someone unattainable. I'd run into her in the halls at school, and she'd always say hi, and I'd either start mumbling back (if i was alone) or nod and start talking about something very impressive (if i were with my friends). But mostly I would be distracted by my whole body turning to jelly. at that time, i didn't quite know why. now i do. but that doesn't make me any more graceful or any less afraid to fuck up.
not sure what you mean by "fuck up"
ReplyDeleteit's all relative. and forgivable.
also, i dont think there's anything wrong w/ acting on things. That's probably the better route to take, in general, i think.
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